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RIP: Felix Clarence James, Jr. 
29th-Apr-2009 08:49 am
Painted Redhead
My dad died. My mom sent me an email last night that I didn't receive until this morning. He's been living in Massachusetts with his sister and had a massive coronary. According to my mom, he died in seconds and didn't suffer. I guess that's good to know.

A few years ago, I said goodbye to my dad. It was right before he moved, and when we hugged for that last time, it had an air of finality to it. He didn't call me afterwards and I didn't call him. Somehow, I knew that was the last time. I remember standing in his kitchen and we talked and reminisced like we always used to. He told me the stories that I'd heard a million times and still loved.

Anyone who has seen my dad and me together knows that I'm my father's daughter. I look like his side of the family more than anyone else. I have his sense of humor, which is dry in the extreme, and his way of dealing with people and I roll my eyes the same way he did. I was always his little girl, even when we didn't talk. It was the knowledge that we loved each other.

He believed in reincarnation, but that if he had a choice, he wouldn't want to come back for a long time. He believed that he had been around this ball for so long that his soul needed a rest. He wasn't a great man, and in some ways, probably wasn't a very good one. But he loved me and helped me and taught me and protected me. He was my daddy and I'm going to miss him.
Comments 
26th-Apr-2010 01:37 am (UTC) - rip felix
mommy was already dead. unless my sister is dead also, and or she is receiving messages from the other side.
ashtoreth was born in may so maybe you know a 43 yr old lady who was born on aug 6th 1966. anyhow whoever you are keep on breathing happy aire.
26th-Apr-2010 06:36 pm (UTC) - Re: rip felix
I'm his youngest daughter, Rosemary. I'd be your half-sister.
26th-Apr-2010 08:54 pm (UTC) - Re: rip felix
yes now i get it, i apologize i had forgotten about you rosemary i don't believe we've ever met.and i would be tomfred, your half brother. thank you for helping with my confusion. omg i feel like an ass.
26th-Apr-2010 09:26 pm (UTC) - Re: rip felix
It is what it is. Familial communication doesn't seem to be anyone's strong suit.
26th-Apr-2010 10:02 pm (UTC) - Re: rip felix
i remenber visiting our dad in sacramento in 2006 approx. for about three weeks and we could both hear the neighbors from upstairs and next door. i could hear him muttering to himself "god i hate people" i don't think he actually hated people. i think he didn't like to deal with emotions. i believe he and i both prefer communication on a more cerebral level, but it's not just that. some things "deeper feelings" are just understood without vocalization. when my dad and i talked and were having fun too it was because we were making up tall tales. keep breathing tomfred
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